I went for run in Nashville today. It was just before daybreak- and it was really dark.
My hotel was near the Tennessee Titans stadium, so I thought I’d enjoy a run through downtown and across the bridge to the football complex.
I love that bridge. We’ve walked it dozens of times over the years to attend Titans games. It gives you a beautiful views of downtown Nashville and the Cumberland River.
And the view from the bridge this morning didn’t disappoint. Although it was pitch black, I could still see the lights of the downtown buildings and the channel lights outlining the river.
But I wasn’t alone.
Soon after entering the bridge I heard footsteps behind me. I turned to look and saw a dark, shadowy figure about 20 feet behind to my left.
I picked up my pace. I thought that I might be able to put some distance between the stranger and me.
But I couldn’t. The footsteps seemed to get closer and the figure appeared to be gaining ground.
My heart was racing. Was I being stalked? Was I being chased? I didn’t have my phone with me. My mind was racing with bad thoughts. I had to get away.
I finally reached the other end of the bridge and ran down the ramp to the stadium exit as fast as I could. I looked over my shoulder to see that nothing was behind me. Whatever was chasing me had stopped.
I ran for another 20 minutes to allow the sun to come up. Daybreak would give me the courage to again cross the bridge.
But in the daylight, everything became clear.
As I crossed the bridge I determined that the footsteps I had heard earlier were my own. The echo of my own steps bouncing off the bridge walls gave the impression of a second set of footsteps.
And the dark, shadowy figure? Trash cans. Large, slim industrial trash cans neatly spaced alongside my running route.
It was all in my head. The darkness veiled my view of reality.
Guilt from my past can do the same thing. It can distort my thoughts.
Sometimes my past haunts me. Even though I repent and change course, my sin follows me.
Past sin can make me feel as if I’m not worthy. Imperfect. Unforgiven.
But that’s not what God says.
I, I am the one who wipes out your transgressions for my own sake, and I will not remember your sins. Isaiah 43:25
Our sins are wiped away. With repentance, God will “not remember your sins.”
We need to accept God’s forgiveness. We need to quit looking back.
And we need to move forward with confidence.
The wicked flee when no one pursues, but the righteous are bold as a lion. Proverbs 28:1
Let’s run like the lions.
My prayer this week is to forgive myself of guilt and sin from the past- and look forward with hope and resolve to be better.
And let me know how I may pray for you.